KIM NA YOUNG, is a korean singer. She sings mostly ballad songs which are AMAZING!! I was drawn to her voice when I first heard it in Descendent of The Sun drama. I was like who is thisss! I only enjoyed the song and never thought of looking her up in the internet. But few months later, Uncontrollably Fond drama came out and there she was. Her voice was there and it suited the melodrama perfectly. I have to admit that it'd make you want to cry if you listen to it closely and understand the lyrics. But the drama itself was so sad, you couldn't stop the tears. Haihh. She has this voice which is emotional and most necessarily not fake which some of the korean artist tend to do when they sang a sad song. Some of them sounded force and insincere. Just my two cents tho. Her voice alone was sincere and you can feel it in your bones. Not to mention very powerful as well. I hope she does a lot of soundtracks for drama in the future. Her voice is perfect for OST.
My very personal favourite from her is Say Goodbye, Uncontrollably Fond OST.
Do you remember me?
Do you recognize me?
We’ve met again
My shaking eyes
My trembling lips
Are looking for you again
One step behind
From behind
Hug me like before
My heart tells me, it remembers you
The only person who makes my heart race
A painful love that makes my heart ache
My tears tell me, I love you
I call and call out to you
But I still long for you, my love
The wind is cold
But it’s alright
If only you’re by my side
Even if it’s a foolish love
It’s alright
If only I could see you
Even now, just like always
From behind
We cry because we can’t forget
My heart tells me, it remembers you
The only person who makes my heart race
A painful love that makes my heart ache
My tears tell me, I love you
I call and call out to you
But I still long for you, my love
I can still only see you
Like this, it’s you
Forever, it’s you
Hug me like before
My heart tells me, it remembers you
If only I was you
I’d take away all that pain
My tears tell me, I love you
I call and call out to you
But I still long for you, my love
Then I get to listen to her first single which is What If It Was Going. I watched her sing live for this song in Yu Huiyeol's Sketchbook. She is AMAZING!
Then I saw her again at Immortal Song 2 (Seven Diva Special). It was her first variety show so she was very nervous in the waiting room. She was placed as the second singer but unfortunately she didn't win the show.I'm happy that she sang one of my favourite song of Kim Bum Soo, Haru (One Day).
Lastly, Kim NaYoung will definitely be in my top 5 favourite korean female singers. Her songs up until now was all good and to know that she can sing live which is great. Hope for the best to her and get invited on Immortal Song 2 more often. So that I can hear her sing other songs live again. =)
In a busy street, In a busy road, All I want is to go back home. Waiting and waiting, Day by day, As the time pass by, I'm still standing in the rain. Leaving without a word, Leaving without a sign, A whisper in my heart says, It's all going to be fine. Eventually, You weren't coming back. And I just smile because I knew I was a fool all this while. -dz-
She solves puzzle. Taking each one of it with care. Slowly, one by one. The picture begins to form. Or at least half of it. Patiently like she always did, she's almost there. It seems easier now, much more unwind. Like a shot, it shatters. 21 February 2016, 6:21pm -dz-
Selalu hidup dengan ketidakpastian. Menuju jalan yang tak berpenghujung. Merenung jauh hingga sunyi di sisi. Dalam diam mencari, Apa yang tersirat, Di dalam hati. 20 Februari 2016, 1:02pm -dz-
**Since Kaer - Izinkan Ku Pergi in AF Season 2 (which was my favourite), not many songs from AF has a song which has that similar kind of feeling like Kaer's song. It's genuine and also the music arrangement was really nice.
So, when I first heard this song, the recorded one was much more appealing to me as I heard it first. It was really that kind of music you haven't heard in a long time in Malaysia, or at least for me, it was. Sung beautifully and the music arrangement really was well executed. (Credits to the musicians.)
Plus, when I know that Syamel actually wrote the lyrics and also the melody, it become much more appealing because it must be based on his experiences. That's why it sounds sincere and genuine. But that's just a guess lah. This song is currently on repeat in my phone. Can't stop listening to it because it's so good. <3<3<3
Hari demi hari ku lihat dia kian uzur. Badannya semakin susut, murung. Lesu kini mendiami dirinya yang sukar untuk bergerak sini dan sana. Memerlukan bantuan yang lain walaupun untuk segelas air. Emosi sering terganggu. Sukar untuk beradu. Entah apa yang dikenangkan. Aku sendiri buntu. Mengelamun tak sudah. Risau dan tak keruan. Seolah-olah ada yang tidak kena, pada jiwa dia, pada hati dia. Aku terkadang terbawa juga, di dalam dunia kegelisahannya. Aku cuba memahami dan selami tetapi ternyata, aku sendiri tidak mengerti. Jiwanya sungguh sukar difahami. Bahkan ku rasa dia juga tidak mengetahui apa yang tersirat di dalam hati menjadikan dia sebegini. Dari apa yang ku lihat, semuanya terbatas. Tiada teman untuk berbicara, sunyi, tiada tempat untuk bercerita. Ku lihat dia semakin uzur. Hari demi hari dimamah waktu tanpa aku sedari. Hanya mampu menunggu tarikh luput yang kini menghampiri, untuk berjumpa dengan pencipta alam, Dia yang Ilahi. 26 Mei 2015, 11:59AM -dz-
I didn't feel like myself lately, It feels like something is missing. Part of me is aching to find that something which I don't even know where to begin. It's fascinating yet excruciating, to be able to feel all of it tremendously. I'm left here all alone with no one to hold on. Everything keeps on crumbling, crushing and breaking. Who am I? What am I searching? Life has been a lie, and I don't know where to begin with. For what I wanted now is to run, but my legs wouldn't give in. The air in my lungs have long gone, I can't properly breathe, sometimes it suffocates me, choking me with reality. It will hurt much more deeper, cuts through slowly within , when silence is being said but clearly, the truth is in front to see. But at the end, does it matter? Have the questions being answered? Sometimes, I hate myself for feeling this way. The truth will never be as beautiful as I want it to be. Even lies will eventually turns ugly. But will I be able to let go of it? Will I keep it as a burden in my heart? Will I choose to drown myself and dwell in it? Not many can do it. Not many are able to go through it. People sometimes need someone who they can blame on. It is easier like that. But I need to do this. To be able to let go the things that's been suffocating in my heart, to be able to be free again, and live my life the way it is. Forgive. 23 May 2015, 3.55 a.m. -dz- **Author's note: The poem is based upon a movie called "October Baby". The movie was released in 2012. Well, I thought that it was truly a deep and inspiring movie. Hence, it has inspired me to write a poem about it. <3
I told you because I needed someone to talked to.
I told you because I needed to take this burden out from my chest.
I told you because I trusted you.
Guess, I was wrong.
You betrayed what we had.
You betrayed the trust that I gave.
For another, who is much more important. For you, I'm not that person from the very beginning.
12 June 2015, 3.57am -dz-
It feels like a fire that burns in my heart Every single moment that we spend apart. I need you around for every day to start; I haven't left you alone.
There's something about you, it's there in your eyes, Everything I'm looking for I seem to find. All this time away is killing me inside - I need your love in my life.
I want to spend time 'til it ends, I want to fall with you again. Like we did when we first met, I want to fall with you again.
We fought in a battle, but nobody won, And now we face a mountain to be overcome. You can't turn away: the past is said and done; I need us to carry on.
I want to spend time 'til it ends, I want to fall with you again. Like we did when we first met, I want to fall with you again.
You'll try everything You never thought would work before. When you live for, you love and you give 'em your all, You can always give 'em some more.
Baby, nothin' means anything Unless you're here to share with me. I can breathe, I can bleed, I can die in my sleep 'Cause you're always there in my dreams.
I want to spend time 'til it ends, I want to fall with you again. Like we did when we first met, I want to fall with you again.
**This song has been on repeat for quite sometime on my phone. Originally was sang by our dear Michael Jackson. It was composed, written and produced by Robin Thicke and Walter Afanasieff. Robin Thicke's voice has that soul which you rarely hear nowadays. Kenny G even said that, "His voice is so emotional and soulful, the combination of his voice and my saxophone really hits the perfect tones for my new album." Such a sexy yet soothing song and with that saxophone playing, adds in more emotion and soul in it. Love it! <3 -dz-
Cate McCall (Kate Beckinsale) becomes an alcoholic lawyer after she sent an innocent man to prison thinking that he was guity. Before that, she was a hotshot lawyer but now she is recovering from being an alcoholic and on probation because of her argument with the judge who sent her to Breathalyzer test. The judge then put her on probation in a small office. She, on the other hand, wants to win back the custody of her child who is now living with her father. Therefore, she has to take on an appeal case of a women who are wrongly accused of murdering another women. To show that she deserve the custody of her child, leading a stable life and to be reinstated back to the bar.
It was a really nice movie. Clichè but with a little bit of twist. The tension of the story is good and it keeps the mystery alive until at the end of the movie. Being a lawyer is such a difficult task because you do not know whether your clients are telling you the truth or the other way around. It is the duty of the lawyer to defend the case that they take on no matter which side they are in. To balance up the personal life outside of the court rooms and inside is a multi-task job.
For Cate McCall, it was difficult to balance both work and personal. She never loses a case and always on the winning team list. But after that case she took on, 12 years ago, she found out that the man she puts in prison was innocent and that kills her bits by bits. Now, she was given a similar appeal case. As she investigates with her friend, Bridges ( Nick Nolte), the evidence points out that Lacey Stubbs (Anna Anissimova), her client, is innocent and the case is just a cover up for the police mistakes. But is she really guilty or will Cate made another mistake again just like she did with the previous one? It is something that keeps us wondering until the end of the movie.
I would say that Kate was totally flawless in her acting in this one. Plus, she is seriously gorgeous and I like how she acts as a mother who tried to get her own daughter to like her to being the serious, hardworking lawyer that would do anything to win the case for her clients. This kind of movie which involves the lawyers and court rooms usually are appealing to me because of the evidences has been touched and altered, there were police involvement in it, the twist and turns in the court room, how the lawyer interrogate the witnesses and so much more. It takes a good script to write an engaging conversations between them to make the audience stays the same pace with the movie and does not get bored with it. The characters and the plot is well developed in this movie and the plot twist will surprise the audience.
On the final note, the movie actually tells us about the things that revolves around us in everyday life. Manipulation from those people who looked innocent on the outside, added with their sad stories, making us believe in them when we are not supposed too. It takes instinct and do what your heart feels the best to separate those who are innocent and guilty. Besides, it also portrays about second chances. To prove yourself to others, even though you may have make a bad decision before. One mistakes does not and will not bring you down, if you do not let them be.
One thing that I learned from the movie is that, whatever things that does not go according to our way, do not blame others for it. If we keep on putting the blame on others, then we do not see what is flawed in ourselves. Hence, we will not be able to move forward and fix those thing to become a better person. It is a matter of choice. Be better or be worse. Just do not give up until you find your own specialty. Find that special thing in you, look deep down into yourself and hold on to it.
Tetapi di sebalik jasad yang bernyawa, tersimpan segumpal daging yang bernama hati.
Di usia muda, laksana kain putih, gelak ketawa, riuh-rendah suasana, semuanya seakan tiada cela, sempurna.
Lama-kelamaan, ia bertukar menjadi hitam, dek sesetengah manusia, yang melemparkan warna-warna kelam. Menjadi perbuatan norma sesama manusia, yang akhirnya menodai jiwa.
Jadi tanya pada diri, Bebaskah hati ini daripada hasad dengki? Bebaskah hati ini daripada meninggi diri? Menghakimi seseorang bagai Tuhan, berdendam dan buruk sangka pada yang lain, untuk menampakkan diri lebih baik.
Kotoran warna-warna kelam itu akan selalu ada, jika tidak dibasuh dengan penyesalan. Dendam, riak, jika tidak dijauhkan menjadi bara api yang makin sukar dipadamkan.
Sering terkurung,
hati ini, terpagar dengan cinta duniawi, yang asyik bak ilusi. Membuatkan kita lalai,
leka seketika tanpa kita duga.
Kini, kebanyakannya bebas pada zahirnya, luaran saja.
Tetapi di dalam hati mereka terperangkap, tidak bebas, sepenuhnya.
**I heard this song again when I was eating in a restaurant today. Such a wonderful song and never fails to make me feel sad everytime. It is usually played as a theme song in TV3 Bersamamu program. I cried everytime I watch that program and stop watching it for several years. (because it's just too sad.)
We usually thought we are the ones who are suffering, being the unfortunate ones in our life, nobody had worse than us but if you saw the program, it shows you, that they are more unfortunate than us. We are complaining and making so much fuss out of it when what we have been through was just a scratch. They stumble and bleed, yet, they did not give up on hope and keep on living without complaining.
So, we should be grateful of what we have now, even the little things. Someone out there are more unfortunate than us, had it worse than us, but still go on with their life even though it is a tough road to be in. (reminder to myself as well.)
