Again

So tired today
Feeling helpless
Feeling restless
It seems so far away
You seem so far away.

Lately I've been having these feelings again
Feeling unwanted
Feeling outcast
It just the way it should have been for me, I guess
right from the very start.

I thought I found someone
Someone whom I can talk to,
have fun with,
rely on when I need,
I guess things drift apart between us
You no longer there for me

I'm standing here alone
again
But I'll be strong
I'll move on
I can make through this
without you standing beside me.

-DZ-

The Lost Love

A lost love is like unspoken words
You can feel that it is there but unable to utter words
The world moves at such fast pace
Have you ever wondered things that you've lost along the way?

Abandoning those important little things
That may be just what you need
Just like love lost in the corner of the road
Where it is hidden in a space of their own

It has been there for a while
But we never really wonder why
It slips away from our grip
That's when we began to think

With one word it can lead to another
Regrets can lead in after

Now it is crystal clear

Pieces starts to fall in place
It slowly fades away though
The lost love I should have known.

-dz-

Fake

"To all those fake human beings. This poem shouts out for you."

So tell me,

how does it feel faking an insincere smile?

how does it feel when you make people cry?

how does it feel to be the saviour of the day

when the fact is you're the one to blame.

Do you feel powerful?

Do you feel strong?

Because with this silence 

it proves that you're wrong.

So wrong that you keep on talking

and that talking are full of nothing.

Go on with your life, 

your pity pathetic little life that you own. 

For it is lifeless without stepping on others 

most importantly, faking to be decent. 

Karma will come around for sure 

and find your most vulnerable act 

for you ain't nothing, 

nothing but a total piece of trash.

-dz-

I Know

I know,
That the feeling is there.
But why, oh why,
I couldn't trust your eyes.

Because everytime I talk to you,
You seem to look at others.
Not straight at me,
Not straight in the eyes.

I couldn't trust you,
and that's just the thing.

It's been holding back
my heart from you,
And you don't know 
how it feels.

That feeling is there, 
I'm sure,
We both can feel it.
But it's the best that it stays there.

Unspoken.
Stagnant. 

-dz-

Strangers With Memories

Time and space had driven us apart.

We didn’t realize that then

because we were too busy chasing

something that was beyond our reach.

We had made us like this.

Strangers with memories.

-dz-

We Knew

I was your breeze that stayed for awhile,

and you were my sky that I'll never be able to reach.

These two things cannot be together,

How can we expect us to be together,

when we knew it all along 
we couldn't have it.

-dz-

Michael Bolton - Completely

Completely

Not half but whole

With heart and soul, completely

Not in between

But everything, completely

That's the way it's gotta be

The way I want someone to fall in love with me

<3

Paradise of Love

The word "I Love You" not often to be said
But somehow, in someways you that it's there
Action speaks louder than words
So there's no need to say the three words very often.

Random things and a simple joke in our conversation
Will do to make my day
Rather than receiving a text message saying, "Have a nice day!"

As long as I know that your heart is with me
No matter how far we are apart,
I'll know that somewhere, somehow
You'll think of me

The seed of our love grows beyond our expectation
The pride of our love remains unbroken
Our happiness and sadness, anger and grief,
Without saying a word,
We both can feel it

Cherish the moment we have like there's no tomorrow
With that we would never regret the things that we miss on our journey
To a paradise that we called LOVE,
When there's only you and me.

-dz-

Gray

Black and white,
I'm in between.

I'm not mysterious nor I'm lively.
I can stand strong and be bold
without ever blending in.

Lack of emotion, lack of warmth,
feeling isolated and detached
that's what I do the best.

Emotionless and motionless,
as my soul has been tainted.

Slowly it turns to gray
and will never be
the center of attention.

I'm separated,
but as you look within,
you could clearly see
what I really feel.

I'm not clearly defined
as I've been told,
but one thing you should know,
between black and white
lies the color of my soul.

-dz-

Meaningless

Living a meaningless life would be something easy to do.

Day by day, going around with nothing in hand,

nothing in mind,

nothing to feel in this soul of mine.

How do I get here?

How do I end up in this mess?

People deserve to live a life,

I deserve to live a life.

Life that I'll cherished,

life that I've dreamed of.

But there's a time,

when I forgot what's the point of living?

Why do we live?

I start to question myself,

Asking questions knowing there's no answers to it.

At that point of time,

life is meaningless,

life has no value.

A person whom go on without knowing the reason

has no hope on surviving,

no hope for living.

Passing the days like they are nothing,

watching every moment mindlessly,

when others struggle to live for a day.

So why do I live?

Is it for the sake that I'm still breathing?

Is it for the sake that I'm not dying?

If air is what I needed,

it wouldn't be enough to relieved the suffocating in this chest

that's been too numb to feel a thing,

to numb to feel the heart beating.

The world of mine is meaningless.

I'll soon be meaningless.

-dz-