Puzzle

She solves puzzle.
Taking each one of it with care.

Slowly,
one by one.

The picture begins to form.
Or at least half of it.

Patiently like she always did,
she's almost there. 

It seems easier now,
much more unwind.

Like a shot, 
it shatters.

21 February 2016, 6:21pm

-dz-

20 Februari 2016, 1:02pm

Selalu hidup dengan ketidakpastian.
Menuju jalan yang tak berpenghujung.
Merenung jauh hingga sunyi di sisi.

Dalam diam mencari,
Apa yang tersirat,
Di dalam hati.

20 Februari 2016, 1:02pm

-dz-

November, 2015

She needs to lower down
her expectations
so that she can face reality.

For everyone she met
never will be
what she really need.

-dz-

Rasa

Rasa bodoh
Hodoh
Tak guna
Diperguna
Kelam
Sakit
Sesak
Tak mampu berkata-kata

Kosong
Lohong
Pudar
Sepi
Sunyi

Mati.

23 September 2015, 9:39pm

-dz-

Syamel - Hidup Dalam Mati

Lakaran lukisan tak berwajah
Meronta ku di dalam kesunyian
Tak rela ku mengejar cinta yang hampir kelam
Sendiri ku di sini pilu.

Angin bawalah aku pergi
Pergi dari kesakitan ini
Tak mampu ku menahan peritnya perpisahan
Tuhan hapuskan semua kenangan.

Tak ku menduga kau berlalu pergi
Tinggalkan semua mimpi dan janji
Terluka aku menangis
Tersedar kau hilang di hati.

Jangan diucap sesalmu berkali
Tiada erti hidup ini
Ku terima suratan takdir
Biarkan aku sendiri hidup dalam mati.

Tak mampu ku menahan
Peritnya perpisahan
Tuhan hapuskan semua kenangan.

Tak ku menduga kau berlalu pergi
Tinggalkan semua mimpi dan janji
Terluka aku menangis
Tersedar kau hilang di hati.

Jangan diucap sesal mu berkali
Tiada erti hidup ini
Ku terima suratan takdir
Biarkan aku sendiri hidup dalam mati
Hidup dalam mati.

Source: Lirik Lagu Hidup Dalam Mati Syamel AF 2015 Single Terbaru | melvister.com
MV: Syamel - Hidup Dalam Mati

**Since Kaer - Izinkan Ku Pergi in AF Season 2 (which was my favourite), not many songs from AF has a song which has that similar kind of feeling like Kaer's song. It's genuine and also the music arrangement was really nice. 

So, when I first heard this song, the recorded one was much more appealing to me as I heard it first. It was really that kind of music you haven't heard in a long time in Malaysia, or at least for me, it was. Sung beautifully and the music arrangement really was well executed. (Credits to the musicians.) 

Plus, when I know that Syamel actually wrote the lyrics and also the melody, it become much more appealing because it must be based on his experiences. That's why it sounds sincere and genuine. But that's just a guess lah. This song is currently on repeat in my phone. Can't stop listening to it because it's so good. <3<3<3 

Thoughts

In this busy street,
I am left alone with my thoughts.

My thoughts that are higher
than the buildings,
wider than the sky.

People passing by
I'm wondering
what's on their mind.

Happiness, loneliness, frustration, sadness,
the list goes on
as you can't really predict
what you don't see beneath.

It's always been that way,
I've always been the small one,
next to others, the supporting friend.

But someday,
the small one will fade out,
tired and began to lose its way.

Too many things will happen
blocking out the way,
and leaving them
to clean up the mess.

That will spend their soul
eventually
but not their thoughts
that lives on for
eternity.

20 February 2014.

-dz-

Change

The world is vast­ly chang­ing.
But the thing that hurts the most
is that peo­ple too are chang­ing with it.

They were no longer those peo­ple that we knew.
They were no longer the per­son
whom they said they were be­fore.

A change or changes can be good.
But to change what was once prom­ise
is almost hard to take in.


6 July 2014.

-dz-